Monday, June 11, 2018

June 2018

I've started using this Couch to 10k app. Well honestly, I've restarted using it several times now. I'm having trouble sticking with it for the usual reason - back/hip/knee pain, but also because of (now previous) job issues, depression, and lack of motivation.

The back/hip pain continues. I'm attempting to set up an appointment for that long put-off MRI but my present insurance will expire at the end of the month, what with quitting my job and all. The knee pain is the same as it's always been - there, and fixable if I'd just do the physical therapy.

So this running thing. I've started it again from scratch. I got frustrated going out to run and being miserable and slow, so I decided to limit myself to following the program and not trying to go any farther than whatever week/day I'm in. So far it's really easy. I like easy.

The job thing.  I'd  love  to get into great detail about all of that here, but as usual being in nursing suggests against it. I'm starting a new job next week which will be three 12 hour night shifts a week (instead of four 8s). Twelves are long, but the four days off a week are nice. The new job also pays better.

The depression thing. I've stayed off happy pills since my I'm a Total Nutjob Post. This may change, it may not. There's a lot of factors involved in this. Most importantly: my Savannah was diagnosed with Laryngeal Paralysis, which someday I may talk about in more detail. But not today. She had surgery on the 16th of May and is presently doing pretty well. For those of you that search for L.P. and wind up here, that is one of the best sites I've found on the disorder. Also, do a search on Facebook for "Laryngeal Paralysis support group" and you'll find some very knowledgeable and amazing people. They've been my sanity.

And the lack of motivation is an accumulation of the aforementioned bullshit. ☹

I'm also (re)starting this 30 Day Challenge:

Sucks
I thought about trying the keto thing, but honestly it sounds really difficult without meat/dairy and the idea of no carbs makes me want to cut a bitch.

One thing I can scratch off
Anyway, I'll try to post more.

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Let's Talk About Books

I love books. I believe there needs to be a bookstore/library that is open 24/7 and offers coffee for people who love books (and coffee) to just go and sit (with coffee) and be in their element (with coffee) surrounded by glorious books (and drink coffee). (Coffee is also glorious.)

I'm not going to give you summations as you can read them at the following links. I'm just going to tell you what I think you should read. Remember, my taste leans toward, way way waaaay toward, the horror genre.

I recently read Hex by Thomas Olde Heuvelt. And loved it. It is one of the most unique, creative books I've ever read.

A Game For All the Family by Sophie Hannah. I liked this one, and I think it's worth a read.

It's been awhile since I read Suffer the Children by Craig DiLouie, but it was fantastic.

Likewise, it's been a minute since I read Orson Scott Card's Lost Boys, but it to this day, is one of the best books I think I've read. He writes mostly Science Fiction which I don't care for, but this book is the exception, and a damn nice one.

I know many people are now into Joe Hill and I have read Horns, Heart-Shaped Box, and NOS4A2. Most people I know liked NOS4A2 best, but Heart-Shaped Box was my favorite of the three. I'd recommend all three, though.

Let me know if you read, or have read any of these. I'd love to know what you think!


Sunday, November 12, 2017

The More Things Change the More Things Stay the Same

I've been thinking for awhile that I needed to post, but I haven't had anything to say that's been worth saying. This is still probably true, but I've decided to post anyway in the spirit of transparency.


Monday, September 25, 2017

Speed Bump (I've Hit One)

I went out to run on the 21st and within the first few steps I started having back and left leg pain. Made it to a whole 0.20 mile before having to stop. I walked for awhile, tried again, made it to 0.75 mile before stopping. I walked about 4 miles and every step was miserable for my lower back.

Since, my lower back has felt tight. I haven't run since.


Tuesday, August 29, 2017

I Don't "Identify" as a "Feminist". Or DO I?

I'm actually contemplating this post as I write it which isn't particularly unusual for me, as I write pretty much like I think. I went for a run last night and I got whistled at, followed by some unintelligible attempt at speech that sounded more like the gutteral rambling of a prehistoric neanderthal seeing woman for the first time. The rest of my run (cut short because it got dark) spent loosely reciting this post in my head.

We've been hearing (for a long time) things like "driving while female" and if you google you'll also find speaking, walking, talking, working, aging, and more to the point of my post running while female.

These topics of "fill in the blank while female" are so vast that I can't begin to touch on them in just one post. Because of this, at present I'm going to stay with one that I identify most with at the current time...

Monday, August 28, 2017

Dear August,

In a previous post you may remember it was mentioned that I'm not funny, and I stated that I was in a dark space. I haven't blogged much for various reasons, this being one of them. Well I've been thinking about this. Whether you read my blog or you don't, if you even know it exists or choose not to read because I'm "not funny" or because I'm not a little ray of sunshine (news, folks, I'm never sunshiney!), you can't deny my realism. If you're looking for a blog that's going to make you laugh with every post, or inspire you with every blogged run, or motivate you to get out there, you're probably in the wrong place at least half of the time. If you're looking to possibly relate to someone else's struggle, determination, successes AND failures then by all means read on (and drop me your link if you have a blog/facebook page/youtube!) and let me know you're here.

(...and there's your cheesy Lifetime movie summation for the day, folks. *gag*)

We're all in this shit storm together.

So Dear August,

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Thirty-Two July Miles

My goal mileage for July was 30 miles. I made it!

I'm still running much slower than my previous, and I'm struggling with distances over 2-3 miles at a time. I've also been steadily gaining weight since I had to take off per doctor's orders, and I'm sure this is causing a lot of the issues as well.

I run most of my days off from work, and I haven't managed to run the mornings of the nights I work because after 12 hours on my feet, I'm either really tired, or I'm having hip/back pain/aching.

I haven't gotten the MRI yet.

Don't judge me. I have legitimate reasoning (mostly financial) that I'm not going to go into detail about.

And also, I'm still a chickenshit.




Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Running Still Sucks

.. but I'm trying to do it. I have nothing exciting, or even interesting, to tell you.

So I'm just going to share my Spotify running playlist with you.

What do you run to?

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Whining Doesn't Burn Calories

Can I just admit that I'm not always the most brilliant person on the planet?

I haven't gotten an MRI yet, nor have I seen a spine specialist.  Why, you ask? A couple reasons, but one being I'm a bit of a chickenshit. As before, with both the knee and hip/back issues, I'm afraid I'll be told to stop the running. I've just restarted!

Monday, April 24, 2017

One Step Closer

To an answer? To a fix? I'm not exactly sure.

I just completed 6 weeks of PT without any improvement. My PT (and doctor) thought it was my SI Joint and pirifemoral muscle.

I don't think they're wrong.  They just aren't right.

I went to the doctor today for my follow up appointment and we did an xray of my lower back and hip.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Here's to Starting Over: Take 2

As I said in January, I was ready to make the sports doctor appointment. So I did it. And I've been officially sidelined for 2 weeks now. I'm bitter. I'm angry. I'm depressed. And I'm in pain. I have a love-hate relationship with running, as you know, but it keeps me sane. Somewhat sane. But I'm not going to talk about my lack of mental health today, I'm going to talk about the running injury that I have been stricken with.


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